Is that what you really want?

I wonder if anyone out there reading

This is my place for me to abreact something 

There's something in life may change

I'm feeling miserable these days due to the weather 

and

the heart.

I m  f e e l i n g   p a i n f u l .

I wonder if anyone out there feeling

the same as me.

In this world that is so so vast, I don't know where to start over

I don't know where I fall

but I fell hard.

I don't know where I hurt myself

but it's painful.

I don't know where I lost

but I couldn't find my way back.

I'm moving but I have no idea where I'm going 

It's like knocking on the door but no one's home.

I'm going but I'm going nowhere 

what I'm looking for doesn't live here.

I m   d y i n g   t o   g e t   o u t   o f   h e r e . 

I should have told you

I never love you before.

I realize,

what I love, is me myself. 

Should have say sorry, 

but I'm not sorry.

I s   t h a t   w h a t   y o u   r e a l l y   w a n t ? 

I s    t h a t   w h a t   I   r e a l l y   w a n t  ?

I may seem so lost

but I tell you

I'm just abreacting 

abreacting doesn't mean real feelings

O k a y   I   j u s t   d o n ' t   w a n t   t o   l o s e  .